Darkest before Dawn.

I had a really really bad pain in my mouth for almost a week. With every piece of even spiceless food it skin burnt like i have a lot of chilli in my mouth. For one night I decided to eat spicy food with sore mouth. It burnt & pained like anything but I kept on eating(I guess that's my love for food). A little later I realized my upper jaw was numb as if nothing happened and it was better the next morning I woke up. It occured to me just like that usually we give up on things when we are in extreme pressure not even knowing whatever we want it lies only a few steps ahead. The pain and agony when it becomes unbearable, it's natural to throw up on things still think about it what if it lies only a few or may be at very next step. What if you just gave up on your entire work, sweat, tears and toil a step before? Sounds bad? It definitely does to me at least! Whenever you feel like giving up or the pressure becomes unbearable just think about how much efforts you haave put in it to work out to the level you are standing on and you would give up whenyou have just the last test to pass through. you will surely get your answers. There had been a lot of situations where I felt like giving up and I totally did and today I wonder what beautiful i would have created had I not stepped back at that time. so people understand it's always 'darkest before the dawn' and 'the pain is unbearable before you achieve'. Do not let The Dream go away so easily.

Tree & Life.

I was walking on the road and all I could see was road painted with yellow. Yellow leaves shed by trees were all over. I couldn't help myself so started thinking over a thought. We keep on running behind things we know we cannot hold on to knowingly those things are supposed to be left after all they are not meant for us or their purpose in our life is fulfilled. Every thing or each person that happens to come in or life is for a well defined purpose that might vary from learning a lesson to getting life from that person. As soon as that gets fulfilled they ought to leave but it's human nature once we get attached to somebody we don't let them go  so easily. Sadly, Ironically the person leaves and we think we have lost our life ignoring the fact that was one of the string of our life that was supposed to happen to learn, to grow, to learn how to love, live, forgive and embrace whatever we have in best possible way! Trees actually look lovely with green leaves embracing from each and every corner, but still a time comes when they bid adieu to each other and tree lives for quite a time without the real beauty but they do live and time comes when they again start to bloom. So is our life, even it has two wheels one is best time and the other one is not so good time. As long as we remember that After every Dark night comes a beautiful dawn,Life can be an auspicious rainbow. People are meant to step in and out of our life, while good ones makes us learn how to live some merely gives us lesson for lifetime.

Pour your heart out and Make others meet the real you!

Ever thought of speaking your hearts out. For a perfect normal situation it's obvious to speak what you feel like but the fact is quite astonishing. Some times it's situation, some times people & a lot of other things which decides the fate of our inner voice(that is it will come out or not). So when is it normal for a person today to speak their feelings out is when they can't tolerate the torment inside. Then it just bursts out and situations get even more worse. Just think about it for a second wouldn't it have been more fine if you would have started taking your views out from the very starting but cautiously. Not all people are alike, not every one is too mature to handle. Speaking what you feel makes you lighter and most of all you are being yourself, not anybody else. The time you realize the importance of your thoughts, you realize the worth of your existence you begin to value yourself that lite you with an aura. That aura is something that defines you, carries you make you stand for what you believe in! It's really beautiful as the phrase 'Walk the Talk' comes alive with it.
So stand for what you think. Pour your heart out but cautiously :)

Purpose: Attain it.

Powerful are those people who believe in the beauty of their dreams and invaluable is the moment when they realize it. Well there is no particular so called 'funda' for finding what you wish from life. Not saying it's too easy but yes all we need is to take is a moment and realize what we wish from our life, what purpose we want to fulfill, the purpose that makes us alive, the purpose we can give our life for it because that Purpose is what we stand for. Our life reflects the value which we live up to attain the higher Purpose. Purpose can be anything for anybody from spreading smiles to set level for others. It can be as simple as you wish it to be and as complex as you wish to have it. But after setting it once, you have to remember it every day and work for it every single second you have got(well you will not have to try because each & every instinct of yours will inspire to work for it) . Once you have got your charm trust me you will reflect it for your every action will define your purpose for which you are living.
Now just picture it: You were born then remember your innocent childhood and memories then your studies the pain which you took for it and above all the pain your parents took to make it happen. Then you search for the purpose of your life. That defines your small little world. Imagine it getting accomplished and the feeling you get while completing that journey. The moments which made you feel proud and moments your loved ones felt proud of yourself. Isn't it beautiful?
Now just think what it takes to attain all of it. Just a small thought and your little efforts & hard work. The life will be beautiful & amazing all you need to do is to embrace it with your own defined PURPOSE.

Orange & Yellow's Dime.

Early in the morning as I opened my eyes, my room was flooded with shades of orange & yellow's dime. I could feel the curve on my face instantaneously at that very second of time. Yes why it shouldn't be like this after a long mind boggling yesterday I had a long night with myself. I was feeling as if the dawn painted me with some beautiful colors after the dark & stark night. Long gone was the agony as it relaxed my mind. Often we hear the quote after a long and dark night comes a  day full of beauty and light. I felt it like today as this quote became alive in front of my eyes. I couldn't resist myself from going out and bidding thanks to God for creating this beautiful world with inspiring nature.Birds were chirping all around as if they were singing Morning song in their own tone. The droplets of water on plants were slipping from it as if they were parting and saying we did our part we will meet soon again in night. Chants of morning prayers were audible in the air. It made me felt more beautiful than ever.

All my worries were gone and what I desperately wanted to do was to embrace beautiful today. It occurred to me How we live in agonies of pain every time when even we have some biggest examples in each moment of our life.

Walk with LIFE

Sometimes all you need is touch of nature with Life to make you more alive to make you feel that you are a part of a beautiful world that you are missing while walking through life. Well sometimes it makes me think why me merely walk through it and we can walk with Life? I got very worried for some reason and thinking about it over and over again got me stressed out a lot. I didn't left my room for quite a time, never went out. It was quite astonishing for a girl like me who never used to stay at home now never gets out from her own room. So I was all packed between four walls and solitude. One of the four wall bears window panes which I used to keep covered with curtains most of the time because whenever I used to be at home I loved to spend time in a bit of darkness it soothed me in some ways. Once it just happened for some reason I drew those curtains for some time and my whole shady room was full of bright light. It happened to be the evening part of the day and what I witnessed was amazing. Do you ever wonder why childhood bears so many good memories? It's simply because we used to play with everything and anything. Remember all we ever wished at that time was to wait for sun to go down so that we can slip under parents nose and play our wishes out and have fun. Then All i did was I made tea for myself and went out and sat on porch and started feeling everything the cool breeze which was blowing unevenly with smell of recently watered soil & fragrance of flowers. It had a calming sensation on my mind. When I observed children I laughed the way they were playing, fighting, singing, dancing altogether at the same time. It reminded me of my own childhood. The trees were dancing rhythmically with the beat of wind and leaves were adding the beats to make it even more pleasing.

This all relaxed me like I never had any worries. And Later on I sorted my problems too, it happened in blink of an eye. So have an encounter with nature and feel life. These short moments define life. I can say earlier I was walking through life and now I am walking with it! 

Not about who you were, bout who you wana be by being who you are!

A lot of thoughts keep on popping in my head.Millions of people walk by my side and it never fails to amaze me every time as I notice their individuality. While some of them are already living their Dreams, some are still chasing theirs & there lies a category with people who are barely aware of the path they are walking on and where should they be heading. I have heard this quote many times- "To travel is better than to arrive." It's quite apt too. The joy which lies in the journey. A journey which is about discovering you, about making you, about helping people in the way, the happiness you share in accomplishing the small things which are small steps to your ultimate big Dream. Trust me when I say it's about discovering you it is about knowing the real you, about what you want from your life. But still I meet people who keeps on crying about the past whatever happened in there with them,  people without even realizing that they are loosing the present time too and one day they will cry about this too. I am not saying that I never did this thing the truth is I did it but then I learned to let it go completely. From my experience I think to me it was like a baggage I was not letting it go and which was holding me back to embrace my present which is key to my future. Life is full of experiences some experiences leaves you in awe and some leaves you astonish where you see that even you can commit mistakes but never let yourself and anybody tell you that you fuck around every possible job given to you. If nobody is prefect than nobody is that worst too. I will share one of my experience with you wherein I realized all of it. I was and still am a part of this global youth run organization named AIESEC. I managed to get in it  incidentally never knowing that I would have it as an integral part of my life. It had made me who I am today in short it's what I can say about it. Anyways I got an opportunity of being Vice-President of Social Sector and I completed my term of one year recently. It was a very  big journey for me of learning and then leading at the same time. At the end of term for an Executive Board(bunch of all Vice President along with President is known as Executive Board for a Local Chapter) we have this formal forum Annual General Meeting where in old Executive Board gets officially discharged from their responsibilities after presenting the work they have done in entire year. The quote which I mentioned earlier- "To travel is to better than arrive." I quite got this meaning of this quote at the time when we got discharged and were standing together facing the whole local chapter and sharing what we felt at that moment. That was the moment when I realized the true and actual meaning. At that time I was more happy about my journey not for the moment.

Executive Board AIESEC JAIPUR 2012-13, Stellars

 From then I have started again to explore more of me towards a better person being a good soul. After all it's the journey that's beautiful from being good to the best. and It doesn't matter where you were standing it's always about where you will be always and that's going to be towards a better state positively.